still sick
yeah i'm still sick. it feels like i'm swallowing razorblades. It hurts when i talk. it hurts when i sneeze. it hurts when i cough. it hurts when i swallow. Iris says i sound like fonzy/gonzo... yah know fonzo. I think i sound like a man. LIke give me a runny nose, give me a fever, but please don't take away my ability to swallow!! i like swallowing it feels good to swallow. it doesn't feel good to swallow razorblades. And that is my spiel, thank you.
okay joe is pissing me off. he's on my shit list as of now. So i haven't heard from him since sunday. he's been completely m.i.a. text message him and i get nothing. call him i get nothing. i'm like wtf? did i miss something hear. i got pretty pissed last night and i called at 12 on his room phone and my voice went out (cuz i am sick) and i heard him pick up the phone... so i hung up and tried to talk and i couldn't talk so i went to bed. I called him this morning and i am like hey... he's like hey. man i can't believe i finally got a hold of you. he was like oh hey i'ts you skeets... and he says this all tired. okay so he was sleeping it was only 11:30 wake your ass up bitch. he said yeah i was at work until 2:30. LIAR. I called him the night before at 12 so i know for a fact he wasn't working at hollister. so i said man your such a fucking liar. he was like what? you're lying, you're horrible at lying. in a smug voice he's like right okay. he said why are you acting like this skeets? why? hmm lemme think because you've totally been ignoring me and you just lied to me. Yes maybe i'm being a bit psycho but comeon now how hard is it just to say hi to someone and say hey i'm busy now i'll just talk to you later in the week? it isn't hard, but apparently for the male kind it is pretty damn difficult. i know i'm just saying this out of anger right now, but this seems like a second strike to me... one more and joe is out. bitch.
My mom will be here in exactly three days! THREE! isn't that great? amazing!? i can't wait! i can't wait to see her. i love her so much and i can't freaking wait to be like hey nah man i can't hang out, i'm gonna go hangout with my mom because she lives here in cali and i can drive to see her! yeah the first couple times i'll say it like that, but after awhile i wont, but this too cool. i don't think any of you know how exciting this is.
The deal is, Tyre and the baby are gonna go out to new mexico tomorrow to go help my mom out. Tyre and the baby are surprising my brother ramsses, because he hasn't seen us or the baby since December 2002 how sad! Tyre wanted to surprise him and maybe hopefully that will convince him to move to california so we can all see eacother and be one big happy family. I know i'm jumping the gun here, but hey wishful thinking never hurt nobody.
MY THROAT HURTS... gonna go cut it off now. bye
i miss you...
it's nice to know how often I am on someone's mind, it makes me feel special. Joe finally got his phone on Thursday and on friday he called me when he was at work, on break, going to work, coming home from work, etc etc. If he didn't call me he text messages me just to say hi or that he misses me... it felt good. Since he calls me once or twice or text me once or twice a day, it still feels pretty good to know i'm on his mind.
Last night was pretty interesting with him, er i mean drama. So we had planned to hang out last night and he called me at 7 saying yeah there's this party we'll hang out, i'll call you later bye. I was like okay cool... two hours later, he calls me back saying that his cousin is in town and he totally forgot he had to take him to rosarito or some bullshit. I got pretty upset i mean how the hell was he gonna ditch me like that, especially since i went down to sd to see him and i stayed the extra day to hang out on saturday... i could have just gone home that morning. So we're arguing over the phone and i'm telling him that i have no where to go that he pretty much stranded me because my roommate was gonna go hang out with her boyfriend and i'm not gonna be a third wheel and spoil thier night. he said well i'm frustrated too b/c my cousin is all pissed off at me and he's blood and to top it off my dad is all mad at me too giving me shit i don't think you understand what kind of predicament i am in. I was so angry like i didn't know what to say, finally he was like just come over. So i went over his house and he gets into the car and acts like nothing happend... acts normal. changes the cd and starts talking about his day. i looked at him and in my head i said i hate you. we went to starbucks and before we went in i guess we finished our argument. in which he said he was so sorry and that he had to go with his cousin cuz he promised and that he totally forgot cuz he didn't speak to his cousin until he got to sd around the time he talked to me at 9ish. Than he promised he'd come visit me and pay for everything. I wasn't mad, i was just frustrated cuz i didn't know what i was gonna do, and that's when he asked what was gonna do. Than i remembered that angelo called and said there was a party so i told him i was gonna go hang out with angelo at a party. Then he pulled out the jealous card on me. He said why? I said b/c i have no one else to hang out with because you're ditching me. We discussed it for like another 4 minutes or so and he had the most upset look on his face and i had no sypathy b/c he ditched me. Than we went into starbucks, he opened the door for me, paid for my drink, and pulled out my chair. all i thought was, that's right bitch. we hung out there forawhile waited for his best friend andre. 11:30 we went to go get gas he paid for it, that's right bitch. than we went back to his place while we waited for his friends to come get him. Than he was off to Rosarito. He looked so sad in the back of that car when he drove away, like a lost puppy. When i was finally alseep in bed, i got a text message at 4am saying they were at the border and that he missed me. He later text me that Rosarito sucked big time and he didn't have any fun at all. I text him back and said see if you had hung out with me you would have had fun. he said yeah i regret it. i said that's right bitch. than he called. we only talked breifly but he pretty much said again how sorry he was and that he really didn't have any fun in rosarito and that karma bit him in the ass. damn straight.
hmm waht else did i do this weekend? i'm still stick. i have a mad sore throat, it hurts like a mother bitch. my tonsills are all swollen and red. it hurts when i swallow food or water. studied at sdsu and realized that csulb has a sorry as campus. oh i just dyed my hair to my natural hair color. i have a midterm tomorrow and i didn't study but it shouldn't be too hard. gonna hang out with john dizon tomorrow. ummm yeah... okay goodnight folks.
he has a face
I know what joe looks like now... but first lets back track. I went to san diego, it only took me 2 hours to hit mira mesa! i was ready to pull over and just come back, but i continued on the journey that took way too long. I met up with angelo, it turns out that i needed 4 quarts of oil to change my oil and i only had one. :( So intead we went to the movies. Apparently he has the hooks ups because we got in for free and watched "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind." it was a great film. The entire concept behind it is very ingenius... moral of the story: don't be afrad to say what you want to say it just might change your life in a wonderful way. It made me sad because it reminds you of past relationships, he hurt so bad with one relationship that he had the girl memories included erased from his mind. As much pain my heart has ever been through, i would never take back the memories shared with a person. i'll always cherish the past.
Afterward, i saw joe for the very first time since i first met him. It's crazy because he has a face now. Not a bad looking face either. His nose is bigger than what i thought it was, but nothing i can do about it. Black messy hair. He was all hollistered out, b/c he works at hollister. We just chilled at his house, watched tv, and talked. It was nice. he gave me this bergundy wrist, sweatband thingy "to remember him by." That was nice. Than we parted ways.
Went to a party or two. i had the wristband that joe gave me on, and when i looked for it thismorning it was gone. i already lost it. shit. i haven't told him either. woops. shit happens.
I saw him again this morning. Pretty much did the same thing as we did yesterday. talked a lot of nonsense like always. he calls me chickenhead for some strange reason. i just call him a fag. he says i like you and i say i hate you. he says he'll miss me and i say okay. much easier this way.
norah jones - you humble me
Went out on a limb
Gone too far
Broken down at the side of the road
Stranded at the outskirts and sun's creepin' up
Baby's in the backseat
Still fast asleep
Dreamin' of better days
I don't want to call you but you're all i have to turn to
What do you say
When it's all gone away?
Baby i didn't mean to hurt you
Truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
No matter how hard you resist it
It never rains when you want it to
You humble me Lord
Humble me Lord
I'm on my knees empty
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
Please, please, please forgive me
Baby teresa got your eyes
I see you all the time
When she asks about her daddy
I never know what to say
Heard you knocked the bottle
And helped to build the church
You carry an honest wage
Is it true you have someone keeping you company?
What do you say
When its all gone away?
Baby i didn't meant to hurt you
Truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
No matter how hard you resist it
It never rains when you want it to
You humble me Lord
Humble me Lord
I'm on me knees empty
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
Please, please, please forgive me
describe your ideal date
"I'd have to say april 15 because it's not too cold and not too hot." ~ haha
Hmmmm... my perfect date. Definately want to be picked up. I'm talking the whole 9 yards, coming to the door, ringing the door bell or knocking on the door, and taking me back to the car where he'd open the door for me. Maybe some dinner or lunch, nowhere fancy, a cheap taco shop would be fine. Afterwards, a nice walk anywhere, on the beach, at a promenade, or a farmer's market. The whole time talking about anything or anyone and having fun. I'd even enjoy a walk along the santa monica pier where we'd go on some rides and maybe have a kiss on the farris wheel. I'd even love it if someone took me ice blocking or anywhere that i've never been before. Something fun... Maybe it doesn't really matter as long as the person i'm with is great and that alone would make it perfect. Ugh! I'm such a romantic fool. someone slap me back into reality.
I'm going to sd today. yes, i'm going again! Gonna go meet up with angelo and hang out for awhile. Aterwards, i'm gonna go hang out with Joe. I'm excited because after today i'll finally put a face to the guy. Than get some lolitastacoshop with iris. At night, we're gonna head to some parties. Just another weekend in san diego. :)
Oh well, you got me under your spell, and i don't thinkg that i am kiddding around. Don't think i can forget you now. Rememeber the only thing we need some times are chilly nights and woven blankets because nothing is like being held by you.
still on my brain
The beautiful lights the star filled nights
They don't mean a thing
Cause you were my star and so it don't seem right
Without you here with me
But you and I both know I still think of you that way
You should know...that
But even after all I still think of you that way
Now love is a game that we both like to play
But will I win or lose if I go or if I stay
Even though I try to hide my broken heart inside
you know me inside out and I can't get you off my mind
Now I could say that I don't love you no more
And I could say that I've closed the door for our love
And I can tell you I feel It's time for us to go our separate ways
But baby I just wouldn't the same
Cause your love is still on my brain
would it be out of line if i said i miss you?
i miss you
That's all
hahahaha that is too funny and too true.
When i went down to S.D. this past weekend, I saw Iris' debut video. That was three years ago! Everyone looks so different from what they look like now! So i saw you, you, and you! Back when you were an itty bitty. Too cute. Iris looks wayyyy different too. It was funny tho, i had a few good laughs.
Yesterday, I had a substitute in my Italian class. It turns out he was the director of the Italian department, who also happends to be the teacher taking the students to italy next fall. Which really sucks because he is sooooo freaking funny. When someone got something wrong in class he said in a very deep italian accent, "I'm going to kill you." Than when someone got something right he said, "i love you. Will you marry me?" When i mentioned that i was going to go to italy in fall 2005 he said "you are dumb." It was funny. Fuck man, i wish i was going to italy this fall. Not that i don't want to go with my girl hanako, but i was so close to going this year, and i just wish i didn't have to wait any longer.
I'm at my sister's house right now trying to wash clothes. She freaking took forever today so i don't even know what time i'm going to get home tonight! So here i am, home alone, at my sister's house watching wedding singer. love this movie! Here's a song from the movie...
I can only give you love that lasts forever
and a promise to be near each time you call
and the only heart I own
for you and you alone
that's all
that's all
I can only give you country walks in springtime
and a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall
and a love whose burning light
will warm the winter night
that's all
that's all
There are those I am sure who have told you
they would give you the world for a toy
all I have are these arms to enfold you
and a love time can never destroy
If you're wondering what I'm asking in return dear
you'll be glad to know that my demands are small
say it's me that you'll adore
for now and evermore
that's all
that's all
If you're wondering what I'm asking in return dear
you'll be glad to know that my demands are small
say it's me that you'll adore
for now and evermore
that's all
that's all
if you find someone you can love, don't let them get away
grow on trees dammit
I have a love and hate relationship with money. When I have money, I LOVE it, but when i don't have money, I hate money with a passion. I detest money. For awhile, money has been mine enemy. It has shown me the way to be broke, and to be broker than broke. It has shown me that i can be more in debt than I thought possible, and it's shown me the only way out of debt is if I somehow get money. Sometimes no matter how hard I try, money gets the best of me. Money is the root of all problems. Money is why i can't get an oil change. Money is why i can't fix my car. Money is why i can't buy food sometimes. Money is everything today. I hate money.
What i hate more than not having money is not being financially stable. When i worked at blockbuster, i never had a problem with money. Well sometimes i did, but for the most part i had it under controll. I never had to ask for money. I never had to worry if my rent was going to be paid on time. I never had to worry if i was gonna have enough money to pay my bills. I never had a doubt in my mind that i wouldn't have money to go somewhere. I used to be on top of things... i miss my life. I miss having a stable job. I miss giving money to my mom. I miss buying presents for people. I miss being presents for me. I miss not having to check my bank account on a daily basis b/c I always knew there was something in there. I miss being me.
I remember when i was a kid and i would ask my dad for money and he'd say "what do you think i am, the bank of america?" I would usually disregard the statement because dammit he was the bank, the bank to his children. I guess now i appreciate the meaning of it all. I always did, but when you're on your own it becomes a completely different story.
In short, what i am saying is I NEED A JOB IN THE MOST DESPERATE OF WAYS!!! So i'm taking donations. The foundation is called "help a sista out". Make all checks payable to me. I accept cash aswell. Thanks again. peace out.
hold up wait a minute
forgot to mention thursday. Went to fumari's with john and iris. Lots of fun. Played truth or dare found out some interesting stuff. apparently we're all gonna go hit up a stripclub and i'm gonna go get a lap dance. hahahaha. Than afterwards we're gonna play egyptian ratscrew and get drunk. So yeah i had a lot of fun, just thought i mention it. Ummm david's gay, but i love him. Glad he finally got laid. hahaha and not by me, which is funny b/c i'm supposed to be his latin lover, but we've never done anything. Actually i haven't seen him since like july of last year. Oh yeah friday went to some restaurant with iris' family and we saw this man with the biggest boobs. They weren't just saggy man-boobs, they were like muscular pecks. It made our mouths water. hahah goooooooood times. Okay i'm baking cookies, oatmeal cookies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in the wee morning
To my surprise, Joe called me this morning at 2am. I had a really good time talking to him. We were just talking about a whole bunch of bullshit nothing serious and it was such a relief. It's great when you get to know someone and you don't have to worry about impressing them or any of that, it just is what it is, no pressure. I have no strong feelings, i have no emotion tied into this, it's just an experience of getting to know someone who makes me laugh. He makes me laugh so much, it's great. I can't even say what we really talked about all i know is that there was never a moment of silence. There was never that weird awkward silence, well there was once, but .... He said he was jealous if i talked to other guys or whatever, and my response to that was "you're a fag." It's crazy cuz i was in the living room talking to this guy i met a week ago, and i have no clue what he looks like, but it doesn't matter because we're talking nonsense. We were just quoting movies left and right, from lion king, to sixteen candles, to the adam's family, to freaking sandlot. We finally got off the phone at 6am. Skeet skeet skeet bitch! <--- our inside joke.
When i went back to bed, i had dreams about him and what he looked like, and if he looks the way he does in my dream... well it's not gonna be pretty. hahahaha. Okay... "buh-bye now, buh-bye, buh bye now, buh bye." -toy story
Level
so i know i said i'm over the whole joe thing, but he's way fun to talk to. We were talking last night and he said, "can i keep you?" yanno like how casper says it, well actually devon sawa, but whatever. It was cute. I guess i'm more intrigued than anything. If i had to choose a number from 1-10 on how intrigued i am, i have to say a 7. I wish i saw him yesterday just to know what he looks like. Hahaha but he is soo cheesy!! he said "your lips are like a hallmark card, sweet and nice." what a fag. okay bye for now, i'm tired from the drive.
it's true
I was talking to someone about someone else and i said, "i don't care about it anymore!" That is when my devil conscious and angel conscious magically appeared sitting on my right shoulder; they're legs daggling down, arms wrapped from behind eachother, and laughing at me. They looked at each other and the angel said while laughing, "what is she talking about?" Than the devil started laughing really hard, with her hand over her mouth, and said, "she's funny!" And i said, "I STILL CARE dammit! Okay, there! I admit it!" Than the angel and devil reappared and said, "man, what a loser."
On a brighter note. I am good. Just chillin. Trying to write this stupid paper. Saw the love of my life... of course i'm speaking of my Godson. He is definately the light in my life. Lately, my family life has been really good. My relationship with my mom is better than it's ever been. I tell her things now, things i didn't think i could tell her. I love that. I love knowing how her day went. I love knowing that she wants to hear about my day. I love knowing we can have a conversation about politics, or life, or about most things. It's a rare delicacy. My brother calls me a lot more too, and tells me about his promotion, about moving into his new apartment, he tells me about girls... we're friends and it's cool. I loves my family. :)
(Ahh... the beast just came home... run away! Run away! bad me... man i think i have to be one of the meanest people on this planet!)Okay, ever since i was a kid i have done this thing where whenever i see the time and it's 10:10 or 9:09, or anything like that, i make a wish. I also make a wish when it's my birthday time, which is 6:17. I know it sounds extremly childish, but i've been doing it since i was a child... it gives me hope. It's been really crazy though, for the past few days, i've caught every single 6:17 or 11:11 or 5:55. I've made my wishes and we'll see if they come true. It's just weird because i don't look for the times... i'm just checking the time. Maybe something really good is coming my way?
ACTUALLYsomething great is coming my way! My mom is moving back to california! "Reunited and it feels so good!"
...yeah things are good.
over it
the whole joe thing... i'm over it. I figured him out and it's not what I'm looking for. I was supposed to visit him tomorrow, but that aint going to happen. I would like to see him just to be reminded of what he looks like... yes, i forgot what he looks like!!??!! hahah. We have things in common, but what i like he loves, and what i love he likes. For example: I know i like the simpsons, but daem he LIKES, i mean LIIIIIKKKKKEEESSS, i could say LOVES the simpsons. he started testing me on simpsons trivia... I got 2 right. all the other ones, like "what's millhouse's last name?" i didn't know it was vanhausten. Officer wiggims first name?? Clancy!! i didn't know it... really tho who names their character CLANCY. How long is marge simpsons hair??? 6FEET! That information is just scary! Extremely scary!! Obsessive compulsive. For only talking a few times, lot he's already mentioned BDSM.... BDfuckingSM! That's what i get for getting to know another guy whose name starts with a "J!" that's what i get for attempting to break the rule. The thing that sucks is that i know his bday... August 27. I don't want to know that, that's sooo gay! I guess it compensates for me not going tomorrow... and he'll find out i'm not coming when i don't show up tomorrow. Woops too bad. hahaha. I'm a bitch.
Yes those are the reasons why i am over it. I'm also over it cuz i'm not over something else. So these things take time. Let me be... haha this is when that michelle branch song comes on "desperately."
I'm looking for a new JOB! i saw one today that's in long beach and it pays 16BUCKING DOLLARS! Im-po-si-ble'! Yeah, wish me luck fools. I know i already have another job, but it isn't gonna pay the bills... well it will, but it just wont pay all of them. I need at least $800 a month and $500-600 isn't gonna cut it. I figure $650 for must bills. And i have credit cards so i am going to pay those off. And so that's $200 so that's $850. That leaves $250 to save That is if i get the $16 job in long beach; monthly that job is $1100!!!!!!!! wish me luck! wish me luck! wish me luck!
LOL
HER PLEASURE LOL... i know i'm not having sex or anything but this is grrreeeaaattt.
didn't work on my paper at all... i have to study for italian but all i wanna do is sleep. The past is definate the future indefinite... hmm what to do what to do.
4:20
I started my new job today. Did a lot of bull shit errands. Supposedly it helps my boss a lot, whatever as long as i get paid and he pays for my gas, I am Good. The last hour i did nothing but burn c.d.'s cuz he's in a band. They're called
SteelParade. If you look at the pictures, my boss is the one with the long hair. hahaha. He's cool tho. No complaints. When i was running errands, i happend to look at the clock and it said 4:20, i assumed that my boss was smoking out. Low and behold when i came back, the entire house smelled like it and he also lit candles to try and cover the smell. Supposedly he help start Sublime, but today when we were talking about it his eyes were veering off and his blink rate was off the chart. So i don't think he's being too truthfull. So far so good. I can't complain.
Joe said he's gonna send me something in the mail today. I wonder when it will get here. After talking to a few people, i've decided that i have to start somewhere. Joe's a cool guy and h he's as nice as he appears to be, than i don't think it should be a problem. For sure i'm not gonna wait for his calls, or do anything that would make me have stronger feelings than i should. I know he's interested or what not, and that's good enough for me, doesn't mean we're gonna start a family or something. Anyways, there comes a point where you have to move on, no matter how much you care for another person. There's no use in hanging on to someone who doesn't feel the same way. It just makes life harder.
the earlier entry today was due to some emotional rollercoaster i've been on. I thought about Jared and how he treated me all last year and it just reminded me how badly he used me. i don't know. Lately, everything remotely sentimental has had me tearing a bit. Even songs, or seeing someone homeless just releases a tidal waves of sad emotions... i wonder what's wrong with me. Hopefully i'll remember my dream so i can analyze it or something.
By the way when did it get so freaking hot? It was cold last week than bam, fucking hotter than brad pitt or brandon boyd. The heat makes our apartment wayyy hot and it makes the ants emerge from the depths somewhere. Damn ants, i hope they all burn.
Started on my nonverbal communications paper i have 2 pages double spaced, that's nearly 1,500 words. so i need another 1,500-600 words to be done with this stupid paper. I'm bullshitting the entire thing!! hahah :)
goodnight.
i'm that dumb
the first time it's their fault, the second time it your fault... whose fault is it the third time? I just don't want to fall for the same bull shit as before. The i never felt this way about anyone... the i see you in my future... the i'll always be honest shit. i have heard that so many time before and it's just becoming a joke because no one has been able to last long enough to proove to me that they mean it. i was talking on the phone last night with joe c. and i've only met him once and he says 'i never felt this way before.' the first thing that runs through my mind is like i haven't heard that one before. I'm so skeptical about the whole situation. can't we just be friends first? I think if anything were to arise with anyone right now i'd be skeptical. I'm not sure if i'm ready to test the waters again. I just don't want to be dragged along for the ride and be told i don't feel the same way about you and i didn't tell you because i didn't want to hurt your feelings. What happend to being honest? what happend to the future? It's like everytime i warn myself to not believe what's being said and the moment i finally give in that's when the table turns and i kick myself in the ass for ever believing a word. I believed it when someone told me he loved me... it's like can i be anymore stupid? At least this time i'll be more busy than ever cuz i start my job today. I also have a midterm and a paper due, so there's not much time to think about anything or anyone for that matter. The only person i'm gonna be thinking about is myself.
It's not like joe isn't a good guy cuz so far he's showed me he is. He makes me laugh. he calls when he says he'll call. he has expecations for himself. a good personality. he jokes around and messes with me. he has two jobs. he helps his parents out. He seems like a really cool person. he loves kids.
Than bam! the red light is flashing in front my face because he mentioned relationships and used the terms we, us, you and i... i'm like what? he even said 'well if you ever introduce me to your parents i make a good impression.' woah buddy. I don't want to be the fool again. i don't want to fall for some line. i don't want to cry over another person.
i don't know... i should just give hope on all men and get a lot of dogs b/c this doesn't look too good.
getting myself into another mess
uh yah.... dammit. but... woah... okay goodnight. all that matters is that i'm happy. hahah ahhh oh man. yah
slept for 3 hours and still going strong
Reasons why it's good to be a woman at a party:1. Free drinks
2. guys always let a lady use the bathroom first even if they were waiting a good 15 minutes
3. gentlemen always give up their seat so a lady can sit down
4. Free drinks
5. Free drinks
Drink:40 oz smirnoff
1/2 bottle of mickeys
shot of vodka
1/3 bottle hypnotiq
Briefs:-830 got to sd
-10 saw 311's bass player's
MANgina-11 got to the party
-was called yasetta
-jerry sang my name into the Justin Timberlake song senorita...
"my name here, i feel for you."-called ian Alejandro
-Lena's cousin jessica said i looked 17
-danced
-realized how ugly the cosby face is
-met some chick who called me yosetta even uglier than yasetta
-Angelo let me borrow his jacket
-Mike said he wasn't looking at my boobs when we were dancing, i know he was.
-Met Joe C. he has a lip ring :)
-got a couple of numbers
-went to juanbertos
-shared carne asada fries
-Joe C. called me
-drove jerry home
-Got back to Iris' at 4am
-Officially crashed at 5am
-woke up at 8am
-1130 back in lbc
Okay Learned some new lingo:
MANgina. A MANgina is when a man tucks their pen15 to look like a vagina.... disturbing
RomanHelmet: when a guy puts thier balls on someone's head and thier pen15 down thier face to look like a roman helmet
The male kind is interesting.
Good Luck
possibly got a job working for a guy who smokes pot... LOL!
going down to sd to celebrate
see you whenever
school friggen sucks
I like school... when it's interesting and there are no tests, quizes, exams, or papers.
I like my Comic-spirit class, but he is having us do this stupid paper about
Man on the Moon, and it's so stupid it gets me frustrated. He doesn't want us to bullshit (what teacher wants that?), but with a topic like that it's hard not to. Just add some nice big words to it and bam grade A bullshit. His class is funny and enlightening, but the concepts he's teaching us are becoming redundant. It's like he's driling hole in my head in the same friggen spot... at one point there will be nothing left to drill. But his stories are halarious and he does cuss a lot so that's funny, but Lacoste is like a Monet... from a far he looks normal, but than you look up close, and not soo good.
I'm mean! I'm going to hell! I know it!
My NonVerbal comm is alright. I'm learning a lot about people's body language. People who are lying tend to look away and have a higher blink rate. Liars eyes' also dialate. So liars beware! George Bush (georgio cespuligio) Senior was put on the shitter at an early age hence why he's anal retentive. Other cool things like that are always fun to learn, but it make me want to analzye every person! We had a paper that was due a couple weeks ago and i got it back yesterday. I got a "check minus," but managed to get all the points for the paper! Woohoo! We have a test this week... actually tomorrow, so the rest of the day is filled with studying. Next week, we have another paper due. We have to go out in public and dress up out of the ordinary and see how people treat us, than write a paper on our experience. I still don't know what i'm gonna do... any suggestions? anyone? yes? No? Maybe?
I hate my math class. My teacher is dumb. He's horrible. I hate him. We had a test last week, and i'm good in math, but not good in this class. I hate my teacher. I hate you allan safer!
My brother asked me to hang out with him and his friends. That's crazy. I don't think i've ever hung out with my brother and his friends at the same time! If i did, i tagged along unwantingy and definately uninvited. For him to actually invite me is unheard of and it has come to me as a big shock. Since this opportunity is a first, i'm definately going to take him up on his offer. It should be a different... besides free alcohol. :)
did you know... Psalm 116 verse 11 of the bible says "men are liars"
I watched
Almost Famous again. That movie leaves a person with a good feeling after watching it. Ha thanks to the classes i'm taking this semester i'm able to analyze it in both comic-spirit and non verbal communicational terms. See what school does to you, it makes you think! haha. Nah, but really it's a great movie.
Speaking of movies, i saw
Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen. Don't see it. I wasted 7dollars for all of us. It was NOTHING what i expected it to be and it was really whack. The sign for us to have left the movie was when it started almost 15 minutes late and that stupid submarine/turn off your cell phones and shut the hell up commercial came on twice. But we stayed despite all the warning signs... :(
Okay i'm gonna finish this stupid paper now.
things i...
things i've done
Ridden a bull
bucked hay
ran the mile in 6 minutes
was in girl scouts
pay my own rent
drive stick
was in a talent show
the splits
things i want to do
sky dive
travel
own my own business
own a house on a beach
snorkle
ride a skateboard
snowboard
be rich
get straight a's in college
thing's i'll never do
anything fear factor-ish
everything else is possible
