just being me

twat-tastic

there's nothing like going to a gay bar on a wednesday night and getting hit on by the only straight guy there. explain more later!

posted by miss. me @ 1:49 AM 0 Comments

bandit galore

I'm debating if rosarito was a good or bad thing? Good in the sense at least i fucking said it, "i like you," (at least i think i said it). Bad because there is tension between us. Today is the first day in forever since he has not call me on his way home. Attatched? I think so. Damn, i hate feeling so helpless. I can't do anything because it's ultimately him who makes the decision of "us" becoming anything more than friends. I think he knows I'll always answer the phone when he calls. I need to start ignoring calls. It goes both ways. For instance, when he comments on how "our contract is finished (as friends)," i say yeah it is up so lets hang up, and neither of us hangs up the phone. seee seeeeeeeeeee! ugh this is frustrating. I hate liking friends. it's gross. bleh on friend liking. i'm the friend liking bandit dammit.

posted by miss. me @ 9:56 PM 0 Comments

describes it to a T

should i try to hide
the way i feel inside
my heart for you?
would you say that you
would try to love me too?
in your mind could you ever be
really close to me?
i can tell the way you smile
if i feel that i could be certain then
i would say the things
i want to say tonight

but till i can see
that you'd really care for me
i will dream that someday you'll be
really close to me
i can tell the way you smile
if i feel that i could be certain then
i would say the things
i want to say tonight

but till i can see
that you'd really care for me
i'll keep trying to hide
the way i feel inside

posted by miss. me @ 6:46 PM 0 Comments

what a homo!

posted by miss. me @ 8:34 PM 0 Comments

fucka

Leave it to me to be a wet beaver. He's like a shell of a boyfriend, we do everything, but the physical stuff. but i wont stop anything, i'll just go with it because i have to act sane. how do you stop your feeling for someone when you're always talking to them or hanging out? Please explain.

posted by miss. me @ 10:52 AM 0 Comments

pick yourself back up

apart of me never believed it really to be true.
damn baby it was really that good
hard to let go of it all
but i can't hold on
it could have happend forever ago
feelings and emotions never grow old
my smile is just as big now
as it was then
amazing how long it's been
i find the time to replay it
from the begining to end
much better any movie i've seen
please don't take this to heart
i'm really not caught by you
well i was back then
to be honest i wouldn't mind doing it again
but today is fine without you
maybe tomorrow i'll be inbetween
it doesn't hurt to reminisce
you were missed
i have no regrets

posted by miss. me @ 12:19 AM 0 Comments

Get it while it's hot

time is passing like a case of bad gas. Every weekend in march until the 3rd weekend of april is completely booked. Its amazing that i have found time to do things, but the next 7 weeks are going to be back to back B U S Y. It does feel like a lot of work, but i know i can handle it, and most importantly i don't think i would miss any of it. It makes the world of a difference when you want to do somethine compared to being forced to do it. But i'm doing it and doing it and doing it well. ;)

The most exciting thing, besides the birth of Jozie, is i got a date for this thursday. I am happy. I got a good feeling about this one.

take it easy

posted by miss. me @ 1:51 PM 0 Comments