Bring us together
I'm back from nallins. I would get into details, but I'd rather save it for those people I know. What else is gonna happen when you have over 250 colleges from all over the nation go to bourbon street? Most of you said orgy, and I cannot vouch for that, but I'm sure it happened. Bottom line is it was insane. I'm so glad I went! ;)
Nallins has left me miserably tired. 5 days 13 hours of sleep... By the sixth day isn't so good. I spent this weekend loungin all day long. I needed it too. Get some rest and let my body recuperate from the lack of sleep and detox from all the alcohol I drank. This weekend was really peaceful and I'm so glad I did nothing except watch TV.
In fact, I just finished watching the video for NIN "closer." As sadistic that video is and as Raw that song is, I still love to jam to it. Call me troubled, call me whatever you want, but that's a song I can listen to and connect with some times. Yell it from the depths of my lungs and let out frustrations I didn't realize I had within me. It's a real song, I mean "I want to fuck you like an animal?" "I want to feel you from the insides?" Unless they're in some sort of porn, who says shit like that? Well I can answer the question, a frustrated me sings that song. It's actually quite therapeutic and I recommend it to all of you.
There's really not that much left to say. Oh yeah, I got my ticket for Europe. It's gonna be fucking awesome. I can't wait. I wish I could leave now. Until it's school school school and oh yeah more school. See ya never.
bout time
9pm pacific time i will be in New Orleans.
Don't hate. It's for a national conference.
But i will have fun. Lots and lots of fun.
Please don't plan on seeing me on any
girls gone wild videos. But do plan on me
loving every last second of it. I heart fun
trips. I heart time away from school.
FREEDOM!
where are all the good ones?
it's amazing what you learn about someone thru a blog. Thre's this guy and he's cool. I thought he was interesting at first, but than got distracted by retardness. Anywho, i just started reading his blog and i'm getting interested again. her'es his last post:
TItled Reasons not to date me
1. i am a nice guy.
2. i will bring you flowers cause its a random tuesday.
3. i will cook you dinner.
4. i will believe you when you tell me something.
5. i will listen to your bad day without telling you about mine.
6. i will give you random piggyback rides.
7. i will never lie, cheat or steal from you.
8. i will actually care about you and not just say that.
9. i will make you call me when you get home at night so i know you're safe.
10. i am a nice guy.
11. i am social and wont sit in a corner at a party.
12. i like to dance (WARNING: i am not good though).
13. i have a hetero life-mate (ryan).
14. i will make fun of you when you do something funny, but tell you i love
for doing that.
15. i will fully expect you to make fun of me, or join in while i make fun of myself.
i need to find me one of these.
david gray
This year's love had better last Heaven knows it's high tide I've been waiting on my own too long When ya hold me like you do It feels so right oh now I start to forget How my heart gets torn When that hurt gets thrown Feeling like ya can't go on Turning circles and time again It cut like a knife oh now If ya love me, got to know for sure Cause it takes something more this time Than sweet, sweet lies Before I open up my arms and fall Losing all control Every dream inside my soul When ya kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet This year's love had better last This year's love had better last Cause who's to worry If our hearts get torn When that hurt gets thrown Don't ya know this life goes on Won't ya kiss me On that midnight street Sweep me off my feet Singing ain't this life so sweet This year's love had better last This year's love had better last This year's love had better last This year's love had better last
What ultimately defines a relationship is another relationship. What if there isn't another relationship? Where does that leave me?
I found myself doing that stupid card game. The one that explains how the person you like feels about you. I was expecting a million cards between us with at least a few people between us, but the cards read Ace of hearts, Spades of hearts, King of spades, and queen of hearts ( my heart, his heart, and him facing me). This means he has his own heart and my heart, and we're facing each other. Well if that's the truth, he hasn't done much facing lately.
I can't believe he's gone this long not calling. We've talked twice this week. That's it. I had hoped it wouldn't have bothered me so much. I hoped that it was really an infatuation with the idea of him, not me actually liking him. Dammit. It doesn't mean anything anymore. There will be a point when I will actually let the idea fade and I'll be fine with just friends. If that's the way it is supposed to be, well that's the way it's supposed to be. I can't force anything, nor will I try to; it is what it is.
"Don't settle for anything less than total sincerity"
