October 11, 2009

island, is

tempting. very.


apparently not tempting enough.

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October 06, 2009

we're just skitting on the surface

your eyes try to pull me through the ice
being drawn to the edge

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October 02, 2009

higher and higher and higher

my expectations are to high. i work differently then most. yes, i get my lazy days, but the easy things i just do, i don't waste time... i. just. do. it.

i'll admit it, i put a lot of my personal frustrations against him. I hated that he kept me out of the loop. I hated that he didn't give me as much attention anymore. I hated that he took advantage of me. most of all i hated that he didn't care about work. That i would give him assignments and he woudn't do them. Especially assignments that would take a second, five minutes or 10 minutes. Honestly, why wait so long?

i talked to my boss and i told him my frustrations. his response...
"is it that he's not getting the work done? or is that he's not meeting your expectations?"

bam. there it was. he wasn't meeting my expectations.

"you know, the difference between you and him is that you just do it. You don't like things that aren't done. you do them and you do them to the best of your ability. i have never heard any complaints about you, everyone loves working with you, but that's the role you gave yourself. You do your work to go above and beyond what's expected because you don't know any better. When someone doesn't meet your expectations, it's hard for you to swallow. It's hard for you to understand that he's just average."

wow. there it was all the time. he does his work, but i just expect to much from him. it made me re-think everything.

i can't expect him to change, but i can guide him. if he still refuses to do the work... well then that's just his fault.

[deep breath in, hold your tongue against the back of your mouth. and... Release making the sound of the ocean]

i can't fix people. i can't make them change who they are. i can't make them go at a faster pace. i can do my best. I will always do my best.

but i feel and i feel it in me
up andup and keep on coming
higher and higher and higher

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posted by miss. me @ 11:42 PM 0 Comments

what you say is way to complicated

i work with mr. greek. he's always stops to let me know how amazing i look. he's also the type that makes you believe you look wonderful. Once when we were at an atrak show, some dude grabbed my ass and he almost brawled on my behalf. Eight months later, he told me well he knew why the guy did it, but he was more mad a random stranger did it instead of him. I alwalys treid to brush it off, mainly because he had a girlfriend. One day i gave in and was just all over him and of course that was the last time i did that. Today when i was talking to some friends, i feel someone looking at me and i turn around to find him. he was staring and i just kinda walk over. The picture we took turned out amazing. Oh, i took many great pics that night. No, but the one we took together it looked good. Yeah, i think all the pictures with everyone turned out great... Nothing special really. so, do you have a boyfriend? i thought about it and i coudl be honest and say no, but i said no boyfriend but i am dating someone. Who? His anem is mr. DJ, now this picture ( i take out my camera) is a great picture. he pauses, and in dispair, i'm glad you're happy. Thanks, we all deserve something good in our lives.

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