March 21, 2004

he has a face

I know what joe looks like now... but first lets back track. I went to san diego, it only took me 2 hours to hit mira mesa! i was ready to pull over and just come back, but i continued on the journey that took way too long. I met up with angelo, it turns out that i needed 4 quarts of oil to change my oil and i only had one. :( So intead we went to the movies. Apparently he has the hooks ups because we got in for free and watched "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind." it was a great film. The entire concept behind it is very ingenius... moral of the story: don't be afrad to say what you want to say it just might change your life in a wonderful way. It made me sad because it reminds you of past relationships, he hurt so bad with one relationship that he had the girl memories included erased from his mind. As much pain my heart has ever been through, i would never take back the memories shared with a person. i'll always cherish the past.
Afterward, i saw joe for the very first time since i first met him. It's crazy because he has a face now. Not a bad looking face either. His nose is bigger than what i thought it was, but nothing i can do about it. Black messy hair. He was all hollistered out, b/c he works at hollister. We just chilled at his house, watched tv, and talked. It was nice. he gave me this bergundy wrist, sweatband thingy "to remember him by." That was nice. Than we parted ways.
Went to a party or two. i had the wristband that joe gave me on, and when i looked for it thismorning it was gone. i already lost it. shit. i haven't told him either. woops. shit happens.
I saw him again this morning. Pretty much did the same thing as we did yesterday. talked a lot of nonsense like always. he calls me chickenhead for some strange reason. i just call him a fag. he says i like you and i say i hate you. he says he'll miss me and i say okay. much easier this way.

norah jones - you humble me
Went out on a limb
Gone too far
Broken down at the side of the road
Stranded at the outskirts and sun's creepin' up
Baby's in the backseat
Still fast asleep
Dreamin' of better days
I don't want to call you but you're all i have to turn to

What do you say
When it's all gone away?
Baby i didn't mean to hurt you
Truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
No matter how hard you resist it
It never rains when you want it to

You humble me Lord
Humble me Lord
I'm on my knees empty
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
Please, please, please forgive me

Baby teresa got your eyes
I see you all the time
When she asks about her daddy
I never know what to say

Heard you knocked the bottle
And helped to build the church
You carry an honest wage
Is it true you have someone keeping you company?

What do you say
When its all gone away?
Baby i didn't meant to hurt you
Truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
No matter how hard you resist it
It never rains when you want it to

You humble me Lord
Humble me Lord
I'm on me knees empty
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
Please, please, please forgive me