grow on trees dammit
I have a love and hate relationship with money. When I have money, I LOVE it, but when i don't have money, I hate money with a passion. I detest money. For awhile, money has been mine enemy. It has shown me the way to be broke, and to be broker than broke. It has shown me that i can be more in debt than I thought possible, and it's shown me the only way out of debt is if I somehow get money. Sometimes no matter how hard I try, money gets the best of me. Money is the root of all problems. Money is why i can't get an oil change. Money is why i can't fix my car. Money is why i can't buy food sometimes. Money is everything today. I hate money.What i hate more than not having money is not being financially stable. When i worked at blockbuster, i never had a problem with money. Well sometimes i did, but for the most part i had it under controll. I never had to ask for money. I never had to worry if my rent was going to be paid on time. I never had to worry if i was gonna have enough money to pay my bills. I never had a doubt in my mind that i wouldn't have money to go somewhere. I used to be on top of things... i miss my life. I miss having a stable job. I miss giving money to my mom. I miss buying presents for people. I miss being presents for me. I miss not having to check my bank account on a daily basis b/c I always knew there was something in there. I miss being me.
I remember when i was a kid and i would ask my dad for money and he'd say "what do you think i am, the bank of america?" I would usually disregard the statement because dammit he was the bank, the bank to his children. I guess now i appreciate the meaning of it all. I always did, but when you're on your own it becomes a completely different story.
In short, what i am saying is I NEED A JOB IN THE MOST DESPERATE OF WAYS!!! So i'm taking donations. The foundation is called "help a sista out". Make all checks payable to me. I accept cash aswell. Thanks again. peace out.
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