4:20
I started my new job today. Did a lot of bull shit errands. Supposedly it helps my boss a lot, whatever as long as i get paid and he pays for my gas, I am Good. The last hour i did nothing but burn c.d.'s cuz he's in a band. They're called SteelParade. If you look at the pictures, my boss is the one with the long hair. hahaha. He's cool tho. No complaints. When i was running errands, i happend to look at the clock and it said 4:20, i assumed that my boss was smoking out. Low and behold when i came back, the entire house smelled like it and he also lit candles to try and cover the smell. Supposedly he help start Sublime, but today when we were talking about it his eyes were veering off and his blink rate was off the chart. So i don't think he's being too truthfull. So far so good. I can't complain.Joe said he's gonna send me something in the mail today. I wonder when it will get here. After talking to a few people, i've decided that i have to start somewhere. Joe's a cool guy and h he's as nice as he appears to be, than i don't think it should be a problem. For sure i'm not gonna wait for his calls, or do anything that would make me have stronger feelings than i should. I know he's interested or what not, and that's good enough for me, doesn't mean we're gonna start a family or something. Anyways, there comes a point where you have to move on, no matter how much you care for another person. There's no use in hanging on to someone who doesn't feel the same way. It just makes life harder.
the earlier entry today was due to some emotional rollercoaster i've been on. I thought about Jared and how he treated me all last year and it just reminded me how badly he used me. i don't know. Lately, everything remotely sentimental has had me tearing a bit. Even songs, or seeing someone homeless just releases a tidal waves of sad emotions... i wonder what's wrong with me. Hopefully i'll remember my dream so i can analyze it or something.
By the way when did it get so freaking hot? It was cold last week than bam, fucking hotter than brad pitt or brandon boyd. The heat makes our apartment wayyy hot and it makes the ants emerge from the depths somewhere. Damn ants, i hope they all burn.
Started on my nonverbal communications paper i have 2 pages double spaced, that's nearly 1,500 words. so i need another 1,500-600 words to be done with this stupid paper. I'm bullshitting the entire thing!! hahah :)
goodnight.
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