my angel
Do you ever contemplate how you got somewhere? I do. I sit and analyze different points in my life and wonder what compelled me to make those decisions to get me there. I even go as far as analyzing one day of my life that brought me to this very moment right now. Today, I couldn't get over the coincidence that happened to me yesterday. I always believed that everything happens for a reason, but after yesterday I KNOW it all happens for a reason. It's fate.When I woke up yesterday, I had no idea of what would lie before me. I just took the minutes in one at a time, and did what I needed to do. Who knew after all the events that occurred; going to my job interview; going to school; eating a home cooked meal with my mom in Glendale; seeing someone run into a fire hydrant and watching it explode like a geyser at Yellowstone park; preceding to go to Magic Johnson's TGIFriday's for Cha's bday; who knew that the time had been changed from meeting at 8 to meeting at 9 instead? I guess it was that point where everything fell into place. If it hadn't been for Cha changing the time for her dinner, I wouldn't have heard the words that finally knocked some sense into me.
Iris and I were gonna go into the TGIFridays and just eat something while we waited for Cha to arrive. There were a lot of people there b/c of the Laker Game and it wasn't in the best of neighborhoods so it was pretty sketchy. Intimidated we headed back to my car, and that's when I realized I locked the keys in my car. As both iris and I were frantically about to call everyone and their mother's for some help, this black guy in a white caravan pulls up wearing a Toyota mechanic uniform. I took it as a sign, and asked him for his help. He didn't hesitate to help. Luckily, he had a wire hanger and some pliers- his caravan was more like a white horse and he was my knight in shining armor. While he attempted to open the car, I had a conversation with him. He asked me,
"do these things happen to you a lot?"
"I've had a streak of bad luck, so yeah lately this has happened to me a few times."
"You don't' believe in that bad luck stuff do you?"
"Well, after so many things have gone wrong in your life, sometimes you just have to believe in something, and if bad luck is what I have than I have to make do with what I get."
What he said next came out in slow motion.
"Did you ever think that maybe you need to see what you're doing wrong in life." Those were the words right there. Those words made everything clear. I finally snapped out of the slow motion phase, and answered politely,
"yeah what I'm doing wrong is locking the keys in my car." Than CLICK my car was open.
I thanked him gratefully and I really wish I had something to give him. Anything at all. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have known what I've been doing wrong for the last months... Maybe even years of my life. All this time that's passed away, I finally knew what was missing. I believed in God, but I didn't believe that God was with me. It wasn't until that moment that this guy that just so happened to pull up next to me, that just so happened to have a wire hanger, that just so happened to be kind enough to help this white looking girl out, and just so happened to say what he said to me, that I came to the realization that I knew that God was with me. Pretty damn lucky if I do say so myself.
Thinking about doing the concurrent enrollment program at SDSU. To see if I want to get my MBA there or something. Also to see what it would be like to live that far away from my family. Lately, I have am realizing how fast we are pushed to do so many things. I know I'm going to be in school forever, so I might as well be able to experience as much as I can before I can't experience anything at all. It's just a thought right now, nothing is set. I'm just crossing my fingers cues it would be a great semester, even if it's only one semester.
I know my mood in this stupid thing seems prety low, but I'm actually good. I know things haven't been the best for me, a few crappy things have crossed my path, but fuck it, shit happens. Don't worry about me!! Anyways I have a feeling things are gonna start perking up.
Watch the latest Christ Rock stand-up!!
Here's some advice from Chris rock to all the men out there in a relationship:
"every morning when you wake up and look in the mirror you have to say 'FUCK YOU! It aint about your dreams, your apsirations anymore, it's about her. You need to think of ways to make her happy. Now it's all about her dreams and her aspirations. So FUCK YOU!'"
It's funny b/c guys think it takes so much to make a woman happy, when really there thoughts are all misconceptions. You boys don't realize that all it takes is a few moments of your day to make us happy. A simple call to ask "how are you doing?" something short and swee that says I miss you. A call that says you can't talk, but you're still thinking about us and you just wanted to say hi. Most of us females take that into so much consideration. Don't get me wrong tho, don't think that will get you by, the point of a relationship is to have a conversations... But you don't have to do it everyday. When you make time together it doesn't always have to be alone, it could be with friends... Most of the time we don't care b/c the time spent with you is worth it... Even if it's only for a 5 minutes... Even if we drove a thousand miles to see you for those five minutes... It's better than nothing. Don't take advantage tho, because we would drive that far for you, you have to return the favor or else you have nothing.
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