Fate
Fate. That crazy concept that we are not really responsible for the course our lives take. That it's all predestined-written in the stars. Maybe that explains why, if you live in a city where you can't even see the stars your love tends to feel a llittle more random. And even if our every man, every kiss, every heartache, is ordered from some cosmic catalog, can we still take a wrong step and wander off our own personal milkyway? Can you make a mistake and miss your fate?Okay, so I have discovered the wonderful world of HBO and Cinnemax on Demand. What is it? It's like having Tivo. Just click on the channel, choose the movie or series you want to watch, and boom there you go. Rewind, fast-forward, pause, stop, it's all a button-click away. The choices are limited, but at least when there isn't a damn thing on tv, you can just turn to these channels. For people who need some sexual healing, there is also access to skinamax. You want to watch soft porn at 8am, yanno just for kicks, pooof! Soft porn on your tv. hahaha. Nah, I haven't done that... yet.
To my surpise, HBO on demand, also had season 3&4 of 'il sesso in la citta' available for my very own home viewing. Hence the, soul mate and fate entries. They have been taking from Sex and the City, with a little help from the rewind and pause buttons. I love Sex and the City. I watched the entire third and fourth seasons this weekend. Yeah i was bored, but it is good. Funny too. I still haven't seen much of the First and second season, so if anyone cares to buy me the dvd set, don't fret, my birthday is coming up soon, just look at the countdown in the upper left hand corner there. :)
Joe blows. Litterally? i don't know. As a person? Yes. I erased him from my phone, and he's also not allowed to send me text messages anymore. If i cared an ounce about him, he'd still be on my phone, but he isn't so i guess i don't care. Yes, I understand how foolish i sound when saying that and there's an entry about him in here again. It's just that his actions completely bewidler me. He frustrates me because I dont' know what his deal is. I don't know how he can sit there and tell me that he would feel so honored to be my boyfriend and that he will proove to me he's worthy of it, and blah blah blah blah blah. I didn't buy into it in this first place, and i still don't buy into it, but it annoys me how he can say that and not mean it or at least not see the meaning in those words. Last time i talked to him was Thursday night, he got another phone call, than came back to me and said 'i'll call you back." Without waiting for a response from me, he hung up the phone. Disrepctful? Yes! stupid sorry ass mother fucker. And so came this surge of making him disappear from my phone and life. I didn't hear from him until saturday, er i mean sunday morning at 5am. I was in a bad mood b/c i couldn't fall asleep until 4am. So i was tired, than i heard my stupid phone ring. I saw the number, and i was like who the fuck is this? Answered it, and he was like 'hello"... i knew it was him but i pretended i coudln't hear, and i yelled, "who the fuck is this?" after a minute of who is this? and Can you hear me's? I asked, Joe? He said, Yeah chicken head. THen he yelled, "i just got home." My thoughts were, come home from where? Than i got angry b/c i just went to sleep an hour ago, and he's over here acting like he told me where he just came from... dumbass. I just replied, i'm sleeping. "well call me tomorrow." Excuse me? You want me to call you? No mother fucker! "if you want to call me, call me, but i'm not calling you." CLICK. Yeah i hung up the phone on him. He's an asshole. Sorry to act full of myself right now, but i'm too good for him. Idiot. Haven't heard from him. I don't care if i hear from him. I just wish i understood why he said the things he said. The things i put up with... such a shame.
I guess everyone has a asshole in their stars.
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