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sometimes it's easier to hide behind a mask and not let the world know what you're feeling.There was a point in my life where my trials and tribulations began building up like a small pebble that collects snow as it rolls down a mountain. Whenever I thought the snow ball couldn't get any bigger, it always did. I just sat and watched the snowball destroy my life one day at a time. I'm sitting here dumbfounded because I never expected it to stop. I gave up hope so easily because I wanted a quick fix, but life doesn't work that way. I look back at the last 10 months of my life and I am disappointed, but there isn't anything I can do now, except grow and be stronger. The aftermath of this massive destruction in my life is hard to overcome, but I know I will get over all the pain. It's going to take time, but I will. I may not be the person I used to be, but I have faith that I'll be even stronger than before. There are a lot of struggles that I am still faced with, one in particular, and at times I get completely discouraged. Today was one of those days just because something slapped me in the face and brought me back to the moment that everything changed for me. As painful as it is, it's time like these that I have more faith...
Hung out with Hanako and Jericho yesterday. We hit up TGIFridays. You would think with three people who have so much in common they'd have to grow up together because to me it was a very natural environment. I think at one point someone said that only one person needs to talk amongst us because we are all thinking the same thing. It was fun and I had a great time. I don't know why we never did this before, but like I say, you have to start somewhere... And somewhere started yesterday. Jericho is a DJ at a club somewhere in Downtown, he said he had an ID I could use to celebrate Hanako's bday. Much fun and I can't wait. 21 is a sweet number. Music to my ears.
Speaking of Music... Anyone keeping up with American Idol? Well I have been and I'm sorry but the red head gotts to go. He's horrible. Every time he comes on and opens that mouth, I feel like my stregnth has been drained from my body and I'm dying a slow slow death. I know that's horrible to say, but really he's mundane and completely emotionless. He is a good singer, only in respects to singer Sinatra, but everything else, well to say it politely not so good. He's not my cup of tea, and I'm sorry to say this but it must be said, "john Stevens, you're fired!" hahaa I know that was gay, but really this kid has to go.
Something else I could do without is this stupid non verbal communications paper that I have to write. I don't want to do it... It's size 10 font, 1-inch margins, double spaced 5-6 pages on the interactions of people. BORING. I think I'd rather listen to john Stevens for an hour or two than write this paper. Why is it that as the semester comes to an end, I get more apathetic and insanely lazy? I think there's a problem... Maybe I should be doing quarter system. At least I wouldn't get bored with the class and I'd always just continue to try hard... Or at least I think. This paper is due Thursday I haven't started it I am good.
HAPPY 420 MARTHA FAULKERS!
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