just being me

Where's that damn clicker?

I don't' know if it's time for reflection, but I've been constantly thinking about the past. In the most random of moments, I suddenly find myself in a memory ranging from my first year of college to now. You can see it in my face that I'm somewhere else, especially when I start laughing out loud. I just can't help it. I live in the moment, even if the moment appends to be in the past.

I think I'm amazed in the speed of each day. It feels like I turned 21 a week ago, and I started the fall semester yesterday, and in two weeks from now I'll be done with all my finals. Someone pressed the fastforward button and forgot to press stop because tomorrow is here way too soon.

As a first year in college, I would have never imagined myself where I am now. First year, I wanted to be a in Public Relations, a comm major, with a minor in psych and soc. How things have changed. I am now a marketing major, with a minor in management and Italian. Marketing and PR are quite similar, but I'm on a way different path. I wont graduate for another two years, but fuck it I'm going to Italy.

I talked to a friend in the study abroad office and she says I'm a shoe in for a participant in the program. I just need to emphasize on the Italian Minor. I will arrive at my school August 25th 2005 and return May 20 2006.

As much as I want that day in August to be here, I want to be able to spend as much time with family and friends before the date. Especially with my godson/nephew Lil Leo. I know he'll grow so much in that time, I just hope he doesn't forget me. Josephine isn't even born yet, and jus thinking about all the moments I'm gonna miss -her first word, first step, all of it... it breaks my heart. Leaving everyone else is a little bit easier just for that fact that we will be able to talk, but I'll still miss them while I'm having the time of my life in Italy. :)

In conclusion, I wish there was a remote control to life, so I was able to rewind, stop, pause, and fast forward to my favorite parts.

I'm off to a fashion show in Costa Mesa... Woo hoo. It should be fun ;)

posted by miss. me @ 6:08 PM