no regrets
Life is full of awkward moments. These moments bring a happening that is either good or bad or neither. There is something sweet and longing about the good awkward moments because they usually ignite a spark between two people. When two people are close in proximity, anything can happen. One second you can be looking at a person and see nothing and feel nothing , but than there is that silence, the uneasiness in your stomach, the sudden drop in your heart that has you wishing for something more. You begin to feel like there is a reason for each of you to be at that place at that time. It's in that moment where the two of you have to make a decision. Both of you have come to the same crossroad where you can either pull away and leave things untouched or let go of your entire world because your heart is beating fast and slow at the same time and all you see is the perfection of that other person. The seconds do turn into minutes, the world disappears, and as time fades away the anticpation builds inside. Looking into each other eyes you don't remember anything about your life, except that there are a million butterflies racing through your body. And you wait for a life time for the greatest feeling, the first kiss. You kiss and nothing ever compares to that moment. You see fireworks, you feel scared, you feel explosions, but most importantly you feel happy. Every part of your body tells you to not let go of that instant because it has never felt so safe and you want the feeling to last forever. For the first time in a long time you feel at home. Your hugs become stronger, your hands are held with a firmer grip, and you keep your eyes shut tight because the moment you open them you know it has to come to an end. Your eyes finally open and you know what comes next, the goodbyes. Scared, you don't say a word because you're afraid to wake up from the best dream. The excitement builds inside you anyway, making it impossible to hold back a smile, to not make your eyes glisten, and to not make you feel special. You remember what it is like to be a child again. Your heart jumps in relief when it isn't a dream. The rest of the time spent together is like a fairytale. The moment finally comes when you have to let go so, you let your lips touch one more time, and your hands feel each other to the very tips, and you look into their eyes and turn around to leave. You walk away and take another glance only to find them looking back at you too. Perfection. Inside you can't believe what's just happened. You are in reverie of every single second from the point of uneasiness to the point of one last look. All you hear is your heartbeat. You lie in bed smiling for hours and you thank God for that one awkward moment until you finally drift into the best sleep of your life.Spent another great night with friends last night. I made my bomb ass homemade tacos, with home made slasa, rice, and beans. I'm glad everyone enjoyed it because i had a really great time making it for them. We played spoons, we took shots, we played superspeed, we watched friends, i cried, we laughed, we played "i never," we had an intellectual talk, we talked about sex, most importantly we had fun. Cheers to another night of fun and here is a toast to many more to come.
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