just being me

fast is another word for life

i guess change doesn't really effect you until you finally take a moment to breathe and look around. It's like my world has been moving at lightening speed in blurry whirl-wind and now everthing is still. Like the tree outside my apartment that was stripped naked last summer. Every day for the past year i would think, "poor tree it's completely bare." I finally looked it at a month ago and it's 60% full of leaves again. I couldn't tell you when i saw the first leave bloom, but i guess it doesn't matter because regardless if i take notice the change will happen.

I guess that's how i feel about my life lately. Everything around me is changing and i haven't stopped to take notice, especially when it matters most. I've just let life happen and i never realized the effect it would have on me or others. As happy as i am right now, sometimes i wish that i could just go back to moments that used to feel so normal, but now feel so foreign. People i used to turn to first are people that i second guess. I know what you're thinking, "that's just life people move on people change yadda yadda yadda..." But sometimes life is moving so fast that i get lost. If i had a chance to read all the signs maybe i'd be more prepared for the unexpected. It's moments like this when i take the time to see everything for what it is now, that i miss the past.

posted by miss. me @ 6:34 PM