just being me

i take the blame

I got my hands on the notebook DVD. It's not a horrible bootleg, but it wasn't the best either. That movie makes me cry. If I put MY emotions into it, I'd probably bawl like a baby, but I just let the movie take over my feelings. If you haven't seen it, I recommend you do and if you already saw it, well I recommend you see it again. That movie has you juggling your emotions. Do you laugh? Do you cry? Do you Smile? Do you cry laugh and smile all at the same time? I think that's the best and only compromise to get you thru to the end. You can see how much the actors had to pour of themselves into that movie. THey did a good job because it gets the water works going and i'm sure it gets the tears going for mostly all who have seen it. I believe it gets those who have been in a similar relationship a little bit harder because they remember having something so special. It's a good feeling.

I used to talk to my friend David all the time. He was just someone who would listen and put his two cents in, but mainly there to lend an ear. Just before my birthday he made a comment about me and although we always had a very blunt and sarcastic humor towards each other it pushed a few buttons. I know he said what he said as a joke, but i couldn't help but take offense to the comment. I wont restate it- all that needs to be said was that it honestly hurt my feelings. I stopped talking to him since. Chit chat every now and than, but nothing like it use to be.
It wasn't until yesterday that we cleared the air. Quite frankly, if it wasn't for me questioning how i was feeling by saying that i wasn't myself that i seemed different and that i was acting like i wasn't happy than i would have just continue to ignore him. I finally told him why I haven't spoke to him. He thought i was kidding, but i wasn't. He apoligized and i accepted his apology. It was than that i realized i may have been punishing him for saying something that someone else made me feel once before. Instead of taking out my aggression on that person, poor david took the blame. I'm the bad guy here. I didn't tell him this, i don't have the balls to, but we went on like always. I confided in him and to make me happy again he made me a song called smile. It made me smile. He's a good friend.

Oh yeah... when i went to cohiba's with Hanako, there was a really bad ass DJ named jericho! He was on FIRE! hahaha. Dude i still have your beer! Does Beer go bad? IT's been in my trunk for almost two weeks now and the weather has been scorching. So if you still want the guiness and tecate let me know. I'm supposed to give it to Hanako, but we running buds have a tendency to forget.

posted by miss. me @ 11:16 PM