January 26, 2004

Reminicing 11.03

Have you ever sat and wondered if you were meant to be alone? What if you aren't meant to meet that special someone in your life? Man, this is a depressing thought, but sometimes I can't help but think. What if this is true? What if the person I'm supposed to be with has passed on, or found someone else? Does that mean that I'm meant to be alone in this world? Sometimes you look around at everyone who's already found their match and wonder why you can't have that.

People always tell me to stop looking for love, but this is one thing I can't help. It's always in the back of my mind. I think this is true for everyone. Everyone is in search of their "other half", of that other person who will be there for them 100 percent of the time, that person who you can call up anytime and talk to about anything. The hard part is the search you have to make before meeting them. It takes a lot of patience and trial and error. At times we feel like giving up because of all the bad experiences we've had thus far and at other times we wonder where it all went wrong. The person you think you knew was never really that person you thought you knew. People are strange and we can't help but be ourselves. This is why if I ever find that one person who is willing to understand me, to listen to me, to do things for me, and love me for who I am, I'd never let go. This type of person is a rarity in this lifetime and that's why if you have that person, make sure to do everything in your power to hold on to them.