Saucy!
Go. If you want to. I never tried to stop you. Know there's a reason for all of this you're feeling-low... It's not my call. Me- I don't show much. It's not that hard to hide you. See, in a moment, I can't remember how to be all you wanted. You want me to cry and play my part. I want you to sigh and fall apart. We want this like everyone else. Stay, if you want to. I always wait to hear you say there's a last kiss. For all the times you run this way, it's not my fault. You want me to lie, not break your heart. I want you to fly, not to stop and start. We want us like everything else. Maybe we didn't understand. Not just a boy and a girl. It's just the end of the world. Me- I don't say much. It's far too hard to make you see in a moment I still forget to be all you wanted. I couldn't love you more.
if I could be anywhere right now where would I be? Italy. There's probably only one person who knows where I'd really rather be. It's better that way. Italy would be good too tho. In fact, I'm getting my passport in six weeks from now. I can't wait to start filling that baby up. I have to say I took I pretty good passport picture. Me and my short hair.
Yes, you heard me right, I said SHORT hair. It's not short SHORT. It's a perfectly short cut. Short enough to be out of the way and long enough to be put in a pony tail. It has a lot of potential to be pretty spunky. I have to say this guy Hanako referred me to has the magic touch. He knows what he's doing. Thirty years of experience, he better know what he's doing.
He is a good hairdresser, but the process is slightly scary. Here's this guy who cuts women's hair for free b/c he wants to and he does it all in the comfort of his own home. I'm so skeptical about the world, it's hard for me to believe that he has no other intentions. Or maybe I'm watching too much CSI and Law & Order SVU. No matter my skepticism or creative imagination that has been augmented by TV crime series alike, I wont go there by my lonesome.
I've been doing a lot of shopping. I haven't been spending the cash tho. My mom has been oh so generous to share the wealth. I'm spoiled rotten. I know. But it's been fun. Good mother daughter time. Most importantly it has been very delightful and very fun dressing up and wearing heals. It's good to be a woman.
At the same time, it's hard to look in the mirror and see this 21 year old woman. I still don't know when that happened. Most of the time I feel like a kid. It's like old age came from behind me and knocked me out when I was 18 and I finally woke up three years later to find this. Trust me, I wasn't happy to see what I have found. I guess it's the pressure from the outside world, pressure from family, and pressure from myself that's slapping me in the face and saying it's your turn to join the real world Missy! The signs are everywhere too. The biggest clue, is Kroq's flashback lunch. I remember a time when I could only name one song during that whole hour of 80s rock. Somehow the show "flashback lunch," has now slimishly decided to stir 90's and early millennium songs in the mix. It's a conspiracy I tell you. I know 21 doesn't sound old, but now that the American lifestyle timeline is being shoved into my face... My life seems to be flashing before my eyes. Next thing I know I'll be graduating, finding a job, getting married, and being a barefoot pregnant lady. And I have to do this all before I'm thirty. It's mayhem.
Yes, you heard me right, I said SHORT hair. It's not short SHORT. It's a perfectly short cut. Short enough to be out of the way and long enough to be put in a pony tail. It has a lot of potential to be pretty spunky. I have to say this guy Hanako referred me to has the magic touch. He knows what he's doing. Thirty years of experience, he better know what he's doing.
He is a good hairdresser, but the process is slightly scary. Here's this guy who cuts women's hair for free b/c he wants to and he does it all in the comfort of his own home. I'm so skeptical about the world, it's hard for me to believe that he has no other intentions. Or maybe I'm watching too much CSI and Law & Order SVU. No matter my skepticism or creative imagination that has been augmented by TV crime series alike, I wont go there by my lonesome.
I've been doing a lot of shopping. I haven't been spending the cash tho. My mom has been oh so generous to share the wealth. I'm spoiled rotten. I know. But it's been fun. Good mother daughter time. Most importantly it has been very delightful and very fun dressing up and wearing heals. It's good to be a woman.
At the same time, it's hard to look in the mirror and see this 21 year old woman. I still don't know when that happened. Most of the time I feel like a kid. It's like old age came from behind me and knocked me out when I was 18 and I finally woke up three years later to find this. Trust me, I wasn't happy to see what I have found. I guess it's the pressure from the outside world, pressure from family, and pressure from myself that's slapping me in the face and saying it's your turn to join the real world Missy! The signs are everywhere too. The biggest clue, is Kroq's flashback lunch. I remember a time when I could only name one song during that whole hour of 80s rock. Somehow the show "flashback lunch," has now slimishly decided to stir 90's and early millennium songs in the mix. It's a conspiracy I tell you. I know 21 doesn't sound old, but now that the American lifestyle timeline is being shoved into my face... My life seems to be flashing before my eyes. Next thing I know I'll be graduating, finding a job, getting married, and being a barefoot pregnant lady. And I have to do this all before I'm thirty. It's mayhem.
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Three wishes... make that Four wishes:
- I wish I could go back to the days when there were still Saturday morning cartoons worth watching.
- I wish one of my family members won the lotto
- I wish I could give my mom what she wanted
- so i'm cheating... i wish there was a "get over it pill" filled with will power, string detatchment, and feelings deminisher
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