just being me

damn the box!

i feel like a thousand pounds of weight have been put on my shoulder. I started looking at "the plan." The one where i'm supposed to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life and if i don't get it right the first time i can bet my ass there wont be a second chance to start all over. I don't think i got the memo that stated "do everything you wanted to do between the ages of 0-18 so you can get down to business when you start college." It's so stupid. How can i figure out what the rest of my life is going to entail when i don't even know what tomorrow is going to bring me? They should have practice job courses at school, so you can get a taste for what you're studying before you take the 4-7 years to finish getting a degree and decide "yanno what this isn't for me."? It doesn't make sense to literally waste years from your life to only find out that whatever your major was is actually not what you want to do. The only reason i'm studying business management and getting my international cerficate is because i figure it gives me more options to choose from. When that day finally comes that says "you're all grown up, now get off your ass, find a job and get to working!" i'll be able to look down a list of at least 10 jobs and say "i want that one."

Pre-hissyfit, i was talking about my plan. It's official it's going to take me 6 years to finish college. But if i want to be lazy, it can also take me 7. If i don't do italy i'll be done in 5. But screw that concept, i'm going to italy dammit. I'm only taking 4 classes this semester, but i may take a jogging class too, but it depends if there are any cuties in my International Business class. Decisions decisions. What else is on my plate: women in sport, information systems 300, and human resources. yippe.

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so i'm still jobless. i know what's holding me back. At this point there isn't much i can do about until the thing that is holding me back is cleared up. The job i thought i had, has been screweed b/c of the stupid thing that is holding me back. it's frustrating to know that i'm well above qualified for several jobs, but can't get them... it makes a gal want to scream. damn the man! save the hanass! now i'm looking into several part timers. woopty freaking do. comeon God shed some light on me.

posted by miss. me @ 3:27 PM