just being me

regrets

exhausted is one word that would explain what my body feels. Stupid is the one word that explains what i feel. I am never drinkng as much alcohol as i consumed saturday night. 3 shots of vodka give or take, 2 big shots of captain morgan, several jello shots, jungle juice and that's only from what i remember. Who knows what else i had during the time i don't remember. How sad. I can't even really piece together the night i had. All i know is that i am very embarassed and have very many regrets.
I would probably take back the amount of alcohol i drank... just kept it at a few shots of vodka and a few jello shots. At one point i lost myself and ended up God knows where to have some random person take me to the place where all my friends were. I am so lucky someone found me. I thought i was left at another party and began to cry in front of everyone. How freaking embarassing. I really nevevr have felt so stupid. Still feel stupid. I talked to a friend and made a complete fool out of myself infront of him. Gosh i just wish that night never happend. Now i am having flashbacks of the night and i put my head down in shame because i feel childish, irreseponsible, and i feel like a big fat loser. So i apologize to everyone for my dumbass ass drunk qualitites. I will never drink like that again.

Woke up the next day at 7... haven't really been asleep since. Moved all day. Went to bed at 11pm. Woke up at 4 b/c i had flashbacks and i felt stupid. got up at 7:30 and started running errands. I am tired, but i just can't get my retardness out of my head.

starting a new life at obispo... it should be interesting.

posted by miss. me @ 10:54 AM