pull me out from inside
The hardest thing about life is living it. The second hardest thing is to let someone in.I'm afraid to let people in. In my twenty years of living, I have learned that anyone can betray you. As a new relationship with anyone approaches, I always have that guard up that reminds me not to trust them. Not that I do not want to trust them, but the moment that trust is given, I'm susceptible to getting hurt. And honestly, who wants to get hurt?
People say that getting hurt is apart of life. I understand that because I know my pain has made me the person I am today. In recent events, I have realized that there are two types of emotional pain: one, being hurt by someone you care for; two, knowing you hurt someone you cared for. I remember all the times I was hurt and how I promised myself I would never hurt a person. I didn't understand how anyone could go on in life knowing they hurt someone they "cared" for. Now that I have caused pain to someone, I still don't understand and I feel even worse.
Every time I have been hurt, there have been very slim instances in which I actually forgave the person. It's already hard enough to give them my trust the first time, but to give them yet another opportunity to betray me? It's a difficult decision to make. I guess what I am saying is that, I am lucky to have a second chance.
<< Home